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| Time: | 6:10 pm. |
| Mood: |  good. | | Music: | Norah Jones. |
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Hey, guys. Remember me? *laughs* Of course you do, how could you forget me?!
I've just been up to the usual ~ relaxing from work, still waiting for love. I am back home in LA now, finally reunited with my Darla and Pepper! :) I had forgotten how much I love this place. David is supposed to be flying home sometime this month and we can start hanging out at our little vintage book & coffee store again. That's always a great way to start my mornings. Caffeine, good books, a good friend. Yup. It sure is lonely walking by there alone, so hopefully he will come home soon.
That's about it. Sorry I abandoned you all for so long! *hugs*
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Thursday, February 27th, 2003
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I know I need to update more. :( I just cannot seem to find the time.
...and poor Mr. Rogers. That is sooo sad! I always loved that man. It always seemed impossible for him to die. :'( It also makes me feel old.
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Friday, February 14th, 2003
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Ah yes, here we are. The 14th.
St. Valentine's Day.
The day for lovers, a special day set aside for people to show their love and affection toward one another (even though a designated day shouldn't be needed).
And for some reason I'm not moping around as would be expected.
I used to love Valentine's Day: in elementary school, exchanging cookie box cut-out cards; in high school, hoping so-and-so would ask you to the prom on the 14th to be romantic; and especially when I was with David (A), because I always knew I had a special valentine waiting for me, just me. But I don't anymore. That's that, and I have to make due with it. And it's ok.
Yes, I'm sure I'll complain about being lonely still, but but when it gets right down to it, it's ok. Understand that just "its ok" does NOT mean the same as, "I am ok with it," but I understand that it's just not meant for me right now, and my moping only makes it worse, for everyone. Ok...
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Last night: David (S) took me out . It was my big Valentine's date. *smiles* And I had an absolutely wonderful time -- how could you not with this guy?! ;) We went to this cozy little restaurant we used to go to on the weekends. Then we stopped at a jazz club to listen for a while - David always loves to do that. :) We slow danced awhile, and talked. I always feel so comfortable with him, I can't even explain it. He's my best friend, and I don't know what I would do without him. (Except be dateless...hehe)
Actually - actually, I do know. Or I can at least guess: I would probably turn into a mute hermit, curled up alone in a little cranny somewhere, not wanting to come out and face the world. Well ok, that may be pushing it...just trying to make a point. ;)
After dancing, we went back to his place. There was a love movie marathon on tv, so we settled down and watched some show. We played our usual game of muting the tv and adding new meaning to the film by giving it a complementary voice-over. That's always fun. *laughs*
I fell asleep there, where I feel so safe and comfortable. He woke me in the morning, while he was getting ready to leave for -- well, somewhere in order to surprise somebody. *giggles* So, Schwimmer: I had a great date, thank you. A million times. *hugs*
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<3 Just wanted to wish everyone a happy Valentine's Day. <3
P.S. Be proud of my long update!
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Tuesday, February 11th, 2003
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| Time: | 9:30 pm. |
| Mood: |  calm. | | Music: | Vanessa Carlton......."Paint It Black". |
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Been up to the usual. Nothing spectacular. David and I have a Valentine's date Thurdsay that I'm looking forward to. :)
I finally have a reason to get dressed up -- it's been so long! Wow, since last summer. Glad to see the rest of the world has gotten on with their lives...while I've just sat back and watched it all. I am happy for all of my friends, just wishing I could have a reason for a lengthy post on Saturday. *shrugs* ANYWAY as I said I am very excited about getting dressed up for such a beautiful holiday.
I love you, David. *hugs* Thanks.
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Monday, January 27th, 2003
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| Time: | 10:41 pm. |
| Mood: |  lonely. | | Music: | Michelle Branch....."Something to Sleep to". |
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Didn't really do much for the Superbowl. *sighs* I really like watching it and being with my friends, but now all my friends have their own lives. So I just watched it in the comfort of my own living room alone. I tried cheering once or twice, but it just wasn't the same.
I wish I could be at the same level as my friends are in their (personal) lives. I wish I were anywhere close, but I haven't even got a start on it. *sighs*
I keep telling myself "Maybe next year..." But I know it's all false hope. It's all downhill from here.
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Monday, January 20th, 2003
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*sigh* Ahh, yes. Here I am, in LA, in my own home. My pets, my neigherbors. My pool, my tennis court. Yep. I like it here. Wish I could stay. *smile*
I went home (as in my parent's house) for Christmas, which I loved; With my busy schedule, it's hard for me to find time to do so. That reminds me of a country song, I think by Sara Evans...says something about how funny it is that when we're young, we want nothing more to be on our own. But as we get older and more independent, we keep trying to get back home. Hmm. Anyway, I stopped by and stayed at my house, in my own, plush bed, for a couple nights before heading back to NYC.
I came back to LA this weekend for, of course, the GOLDEN GLOBE AWARDS! Yay! Congratulations Jen! (And you too Matt, we all know you deserved it more!!) And of course to my wonderfully talented cast for getting us nominated! =) The awards show was great, as it always is. The parties afterward are always a blast, too. (Not that I'll indulge in them here, of course...>:) )
David's staying with me while I'm here, which is cool b/c I'm not as lonely. We're leaving tomorrow afternoon. I'm so reluctant to leave...I don't know when I'll get to see my babies (pets) again! :'( I'm going to try and visit them more often. Not like I really have a social life back in New York anyhow. *sigh*
So yeah, I'VE RETURNED TO LJ! Whoo-hoo!
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Monday, December 16th, 2002
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Matt LB is right ~ the famous Jingle Cats are surely very elderly by now, if not dead. :'( That is so depressing. I'm glad that they are captured on tape.
I love listening to them every Christmas, I love cats and they remind me home. Especially now, when I left my 2 pets for my friend to care for while I've been in New York. I meant to fly back to New York this fall w/ Schwimmer, but I was sick. :P
So anyway, yeah, I miss my family, including the animals. I contemplated spending the holidays with them, but I decided to stay in NYC this year. Hopefully with some friends, if any still choose to stay.
If not I'll just sit at home and throw in the Jingle Cats.
And all will be well.
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Tuesday, December 10th, 2002
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*groans* AAH, I just want to wake up one day and have everything back to normal. Not that I'm sure exactly what "normal" was...but it wasn't this.
That "special somebody" gave you butterflies in your stomach every time you saw them. Friends spared time, and didn't forget. The other half of the bed was never empty. There was time enough for both work and play, & sometimes it felt harder to make time for work than for play; and you were always reluctant to do so. Money was no matter, as long as you always had some; and you rarely did, but hell, it still didn't matter. As long as somebody cared.
But what if it feels like they don't?
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Sunday, November 24th, 2002
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| Time: | 1:57 am. |
| Mood: |  hopeful. |
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Haven't really been up to much of anything lately. La la la la...
First off, check out my new icons. Those are always fun.
I came up with a great idea:
For Thanksgiving, since we don't really get to spend any time together outside of work, you're all cordially invited to my place for the holiday. You all know I'm an awesome cook, so you should be looking forward to it as much as me, if for no other reason than the food. :) We can all hang out together and catch up, watch football, eat, drink, & be merry. (Hey - and I make a killer pumpkin pie.) ;-) Yay, this will be so much fun.
Oh, and if somebody doesn't have plans, you're more than welcome to spend Christmas here. Rather be with friends than by yourself at Christmas. I wasn't planning on going home this year, so if anyone else will be be lonely I'd love to share the holidays with you.
So PLEASE comment, call, or tell me at the studio asap if you can come or not. I <3 YOU GUYS!!
Sincerely,
--Anxious in New York
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Wednesday, November 20th, 2002
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I had an awesome awesome time last night. :D :D
It had been so long since I'd been clubbing, and I was so excited. Eeeee, look I'm still excited. Hehe.
So for the females out there that care, or at least to aid my own memory in the future, I wore my new burgandy corduroy corset-type shirt with sheer material around the top, dark brown leather miniskirt, and matching knee-high boots. Ooo, cute! :)
Anyway I picked Matthew up around 9:30 and we headed for The Verve. He looked so good, mmm. ;) He did look super hott though. Won't even let myself go there --
The whole evening I was so hyper and crazy that I pretty mcuh felt drunk, even though I was completely sober; which is surprising, but with Matthew obviously there and all I wouldn't do that. But I laughed at everything, wasn't afraid or embarassed to dance with complete strangers, and I can't even remember what half of the guys I danced with even looked like.
I certainly do remember dancing with Matthew though, because he, as I mentioned before, was totally hott. Seriously, like everything he did was so sexy. No matter if we were grinding, yelling (aka conversing, with all the loud music), or just taking a break outside to get some fresh air, the whole time he just made me feel....I don't even know. And especially little things, like when he would follow me out onto the dance floor holding my hand, or with his arm lying lightly across my back so as not to lose me. He was just plain gorgeous. And wonderful. The entire evening.
Whew...ook. Enough of that.
We didn't get home until, I'd say, around 3:00 in the morning. Something like that. I had a great time though, we absolutely have to do it again. And David, you'd best come with us, too. And whoever else wants to go, for that matter.
I'll talk with you all again later, that is assuming I won't be murdered by Kip anytime soon... ;) ....
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Monday, November 18th, 2002
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Matthew invited me to go clubbing tomorrow. Yay! That guy's always too busy for me, at first I wasn't even sure he was talking to me. :-) Plus we haven't gone clubbing forever. This should be fun.
I should invite Schwimmer to go clubbing sometime. I'm not sure if he'd actually go or not, though. Not sure he'd be too comfortable. And I would invite him to go with Perry & I tomorrow, but I wanna do something with just him for once. Next time though, David....I promise!! :-)
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Sunday, November 3rd, 2002
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| Time: | 1:20 am. |
| Mood: | cheerful. | | Music: | Anne Murray....."White Christmas". |
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Yes, I am in fact busting out the Christmas songs.
Only for a while, though. I like to focus on Christmas more after Thanksgiving, b/c then there's one less major thing I have to worry about. I'm just in the mood to listen to this.
Right now I'm watching "An Affair to Remember" and going through some picture albums I brough with me. As I told Matthew earlier, I really miss my animals back home. :( My friend is taking care of them right now. I want to fly to LA sometime soon to see them, but I don't want to go by myself. I'm planning on going home for the holidays, but that's still a while off. *sigh*
I wish Schwimmer were here. Or Matthew. Or anybody would do, really. (hehe, sorry boys) I like this, but I've - obviously - got some extra time on my hands.
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Saturday, November 2nd, 2002
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Yep, it's officially nippy out there. I just got home - David was "unmercifully dying of boredom," so we walked around outside a bit. It smells so crisp and wonderful outside, and the sky is so clear. *sigh* I love weather like this, even though I do have a tendency to freeze up relatively fast.
David is staying over here for a while. I'm cooking us my homemade version of "popcorn chicken," hehe. Just sounded good. I hope it turns out alright, I've only made it once before. We'll find out soon though, it's cooling right now. David's watching a movie on tv, and I'm trying to listen and follow along...I've seen it before, but I don't actually know what it's called.
Anyway, it's nice. The whole setting. It's really comfy. I could get used to this. *contented sigh*
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Monday, October 28th, 2002
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"Time goes by so fast, people go in and out of your life. You must never miss the opportunity to tell these people how much they mean to you."
-"Cheers"
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Sunday, October 20th, 2002
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| Time: | 2:02 pm. |
| Mood: |  blah. | | Music: | Shakira. |
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I'm sooo tired. And bored. Yet I have so much to do. That's why I'm using my livejournal to procrastinate. =] *sigh*
Humm-hmmm....ok I know if I don't start things now I never will. As appealing as that sounds...
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Saturday, October 12th, 2002
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| Time: | 2:04 am. |
| Mood: | pleased. | | Music: | Sugar Ray......."Fly". |
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I'm picking out new slipcovers for the living room. Decorating is so much fun, I find it so relaxing. I think that if I were not an actress I would have become and interior decorator. Yes. Maybe I still will. Make the most out of my life. Do everything I want while I still can.
Anyway...
I went out w/ Shwimmer last night. We decided to let something to do find us. :) We listened to a group of jazz musicians play outside a restaurant/bar patio thing, and we got to throw change into their guitar case. Then we went back to his place and I cooked spicy wild wings, and we rented "Sleepless in Seattle" off of Pay-Per-View.
That was nice. He makes me so comfortable. I so love hanging out with him, I hope we get to do things like that together more often. Assuming he doesn't get to sick of me. ;)
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Monday, October 7th, 2002
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| Time: | 10:05 pm. |
| Mood: | mellow. | | Music: | The Turtles....."Happy Together". |
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Yep yep yep, I'm here! :)
I know, this doesn't even nearly deserve the title of an "entry." But at least it's something. Something to let you know I'm still alive. Not the best off, but here.
No worries though. All will work itself out eventually.
I'm so glad I'm optimistic. Life would be so much more difficult if I weren't. *grin*
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Tuesday, September 24th, 2002
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| Time: | 11:05 pm. |
| Mood: |  indescribable. | | Music: | Destiney's Child....."Emotion". |
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I've been sick recently, though I've tried not to let it show at work. Work's going great by the way.
Friends new season premiere Thursday night!!!
Congratulations Jen on your Emmy! And congrats to the rest of us, guys we deserve it. :) Emmy nights are always fun. ([ Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<a [...] url">') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] I've been sick recently, though I've tried not to let it show at work. Work's going great by the way. <big><i>Friends</i> new season premiere Thursday night!!! Congratulations</big> <a href="http://www.livejournal.com/users/j_aniston/">Jen</a> on your Emmy! And congrats to the rest of us, guys we deserve it. :) Emmy nights are always fun. (<a href="<a href="URL">Jen</a> ">Matt</a> & <a href="http://www.livejournal.com/users/matthewperry/">Matthew</a> --you guys really should have won. Both of you. How could they fairly choose between you? You're both a hella lot funnier than RRomano.) <img src="C:\Christy's Stuff\JAnistonEmmy.art" alt="title or description" /> I meant to go with <a href="http://www.livejournal.com/users/schwimmer/">David (S)</a> to LA this weekend even though I was sick, but he wouldn't allow it. *sigh* So I just stayed here. Not like I had much of a choice, really. Matthew still lives here which I think is great. At first it was so neat to have him here with me, outside of work where we could really talk. When we went to sleep, when we woke up...it was just nice to know he'd always be there. But lately he hasn't been. He's been staying at Kip's nearly all the time. Usually if I do see him for a moment before he runs out the door to Kip's, its a preoccupied Matthew. Though his things are still here, he never is. Or its just like he never is. Funny....that's the way things were between David and I at the end. |
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Sunday, September 15th, 2002
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| Time: | 10:14 pm. |
| Mood: | discontent. | | Music: | Manda. |
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It shouldn't be possible to fall in and out of love so quickly.
Not _out of love_ persay, but when circumstances change and there seems to be no other choice.
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